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Perpetual Exhaustion
hanging on by a thread

Tuesday, January 30, 2007
I'm here...just buried under laundry and busy taking care of two sick little girls. Friday night/Saturday morning my son woke up at 3 am puking, then again at 5 and 730. He spent the majority of Saturday on my lap and is still getting his appetite back. I was hoping his sickness would just be a fluke and not pass thru the house. Yesterday around 6, Twin A threw up all over the kitchen floor four times in a row, she threw up again once in bed and had a very rough sleep last night. I woke up around 2 am sensing someone in the room, Twin B is lying in bed next to hubby...next thing i know she's throwing up on our bed *sigh*. Spend the night with her vomiting and both girls having a rough time sleeping. Twin A has been up in her bed sleeping for probably close to 3 hours now, and Twin B has spent the day lying on the couch. Twin A hasn't thrown up since bedtime last night, Twin B has thrown up two more times today. And because i'm a glutton for punishment i threw up last night as well lol...and i'm not feeling so hot today either. Wonder when OD will come down with it, hopefully before her fieldtrip on Friday, i know she'll be miserable if she misses it.

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Friday, January 26, 2007
Conversations:

So my adorable little boy has a speech delay as well...so he can't say any of the girls names properly and he just has been able to say Daddy. So yesterday i was sitting with him and i was breaking the girls names down to sylables.

Me: J*
Him: Do
Me: L**
Him: L**
Me: ah
Him: ah

we run thru this about 3 or 4 times. Then I say Twin B's name altogether, looking at my son for him to now repeat it back to me. He looks at me and shakes his head and says
Him: No Do, Bo Bo (its his name for Twin B)

Sitting around the kitchen table yesterday afternoon, its me, my son and the twins.

Twin A: pointing to me 1, pointing to my son 2, pointing to Twin B 3, and then to herself 3
Me: No honey, it's 1, 2, 3, 4 (pointing to each of us as i go)
Twin A: Mommy, I'm not 4!! I'm THREE
Me: I know you aren't four years old honey, but when counting you are number 4, there are 4 of us at the table
Twin A: no, i'm 3
Me: okay fine, you're 3
Twin A: is all smiles now

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Tuesday, January 23, 2007
I'm. Not. Ready!!

Yesterday after OD came home from school, she emptied out her backpack for me and I started going thru the papers she had brought home that day. First there was a flyer for some indoor soccer club, then a scholastic order form. The last piece of paper was printed on green paper and had the school logo on it, so i saved looking at it for last. I placed the papers on the counter, emptied out her lunch bag and then went back to the stack of papers. I immediately recycled the indoor soccer form, glanced thru the scholastic order form, but realizing it was the same one the girls have brought home from school the previous week recycled that as well. This brought me back to the green paper with the school logo on it. Across the top of the paper were the words that literally made me throw up a little in my mouth....Kindergarten Pre-Registeration Survey. You see here in the great white north, Kindergarten lasts for two years, 5 days a week for 2.5 hours a day. Children go to Junior Kindergarten when they are four years old. This form was announcing that kids born in the year 2003 are eligible to attend Kindergarten next fall. My baby girls can go to school, they can climb aboard that big school bus and go off to real school next year. The form just wants their names and birthday and our address so that they can set up an appointment in April for us to come in and register the girls. The form also lists all the documents we'll need to have with us when we come in for our appointment, proof of their citizenship, address, and immunizations. Thinking about sending them to school next year feels me with so much angst. I know that Twin A will do wonderfully in school, she loves preschool and surprises me with all the new songs and poems she learns. Twin B is where all my nervousness comes from. She loves going to preschool, it took her a bit to get comfortable but once she did she's been great. My fear is that because of her Apraxia she'll flounder in school next year. I'm afriad that the kids will pick on her or not want to play with her because they won't understand her (the kindergarten class is a mixed Junior/Senior class, so there will be kids as young as 3, who will turn 4 that year in JK, and as old as 6, those in SK, in the class). I'm also afraid that the teacher won't be able to understand her or give her the help she needs. I'm afraid because she'll need to be able to say her ABC's to prove she knows them and count to 10 and such and she just physically can't, that she'll develop a hate of school instead of loving it. Seriously thinking about sending them to school in the fall literally makes me sick to my stomach. And lets not even discuss putting my 30 lb kiddos on a bus to go to school. I have to have the form returned by the 31st of January....i'll just try to ignore it till then.

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Monday, January 15, 2007
I'm covered in glue. My neck and shoulders are a bit sore, but i have such a satisified feeling. Every night since Friday, after i put the kids to bed, i've been up in my room scrapbooking. There used to be a time when i was current in my scrapbooking. Even after the twins were born, i was basically current, pictures would get developed and i'd find time to scrapbook them. Then i was pregnant with my son and the girls were still babies and well i started to fall behind. I'd be a few months behind, nothing terrible. After my son was born, well i had even less free time, and if i had free time, i was so tired that i'd rather veg then drag out all of my supplies and work, so i got even further behind. Currently i was about a year and a half behind in each of the kids albums. So i've been busy trying to make a dent in the backlog. Friday night i managed to do three double page layouts in my son's album where he's 1-2 yrs old. Saturday night i did another three double page layouts, and Sunday night i was really productive and made four double page layouts in his album. This brought him up to being only a year behind lol. Tonight i figured i should spread my energy and so i started OD's next album, the summer before she turns 5 going to the summer before she turns 6 probably depending on how much i can fit in the album. I did 3 double page layouts and one single page layout. One of the double page layouts took me well over an hour to acomplish, but it turned out beautiful and i'm quite proud. I'm still about a year and a half behind in hers, but its a start lol. The twins are also a year and a half behind still. I'm thinking that all pictures I take starting this January will go into a family album instead of continuing on with their individual albums. This way i dont' need to scrapbook Halloween, visits to the pumpkin patch, christmas, etc four times over. At the same time i love the kids having their own special albums something they can take with them when they grow up and get married and have kids of their own. And of course if i start a family album now, OD will have had seperate albums longer then the other kids, and will they get jealous of that fact later in life?? Seriously i have angst over these questions lol. If any other scrapbookers read my blog, what would you do??

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Sunday, January 14, 2007
On all things holy...please let the buses not be cancelled tomorrow morning. We're supposed to get quite the winter storm tonight and tomorrow...snow and ice pellets. I'm hoping we get nothing, because well i hate snow but also as much as i love my children...i love being able to send OD off to school in the morning to cut down on the chaos.

**UPDATE** the streets are covered in snow...and ice pellets are coming down. All busses are cancelled...she's home for the day.

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Friday, January 12, 2007
Come in, sit down, make yourself confortable. How do you like the new digs? There are still a few bugs to work out, but i'm excited to finally have it up and running.

Oldest daughter went back to school on Monday, i did a happy dance once she was on the bus and headed towards school. Nothing makes me happier then getting back into our routines. Tuesday the twins headed back to school as well. As i was enjoying my quiet time with Lucas that morning, the phone rang...call display said it was oldest daughters school. At not even 10:20 am, i knew this call was going to be bad news. The school secretary had daughter in the office with her, daughter was complaining of her being sick and feeling like she was going to throw up. I talked to OD on the phone and asked her how she felt, let her know that if she came home, it meant she had to rest on the couch all day, no playing...she agreed. Picked her up and killed sometime before getting the twins from their school as well. While waiting for the twins to come out of their class, OD is chasing son up and down the hallway. We get home and everyone has lunch. OD is dancing around and bouncing on the couch. She tells me she feels better, she wants to play. Sorry sweetheart, the deal was i'd get you cause you are sick and therefore would rest on the couch all day. She was none too amused with that. Next time the school calls and she complains she's sick she better have a fever or have puked, else she's staying put.

Yesterday after picking the twins up from school, i swung by mcdonald's to treat them to lunch. We get home, i get everyone out of the car and head them into the house. I grab my purse, the mail, the girls backpacks', the happy meal bags, the tray with the milks...my hands are quite full. Just as i shut the car door and start heading towards the door to go into the house, i watch it close. I figure fine, no big deal, i have just enough finger room to turn the handle without dropping anything. I turn the knob, push in on the door and it doesn't budge. My children have successfully locked me out of the house. I bang on the door, telling them to turn the lock. I hear them fiddling with it...but evidently they aren't strong enough to turn the lock back. So i drop all the things in my hands, dig for my keys to unlock the door and let myself in. I should add that all the while my son is inside crying "mommy mommy" not sure if he was upset because i wasn't inside or because i had his lunch.

and as further evidence of needing to watch what i say....oldest daughter said Jesus Christ yesteday morning. Now granted i'd rather hear her say JC and flippin' as opposed to the more colorful language that i used to use all the freakin' time...but its still not quite appropriate for my SIX year old daughter.

So now that i have a shiney new template...i hope to be blogging on a regular basis. If i slack..get on me about it okay :)

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Thursday, January 11, 2007
Rules:
Open your library.
Put it on shuffle.
Press play.
Type the song that is playing for every question.
Press the button again when you get to a new question.
Do not lie and try to pretend that you are cool.

Opening Credits: "You Don't" by Sara Evans
Waking Up: "Until we fall back in love again" by Jeff Carson
First Day of School: "It wouldn't kill me" by Jeff Carson
Falling in Love: "Some Hearts" by Carrie Underwood
Fight Songs: "Independence Day" by Martina McBride
Breaking Up: "The love that we lost" by Chely Wright
Prom: "Don't Worry Baby" by Lorrie Morgan
Life: "She's my kind of rain" by Tim McGraw
Mental Breakdown: "I Hope you Dance" by LeeAnn Womack
Driving: "Let me Let go" by Faith Hill
Flashback: "Strangers" by Martina McBride
Wedding: "If you ask" by Faith Hill
Birth of a Child: "I will be" by Lila McCann
Final Battle: "I want you" by Faith HIll
Death Scene: "Dreaming out loud" by Sherrie Austin
Funeral Song: "Tonight the Heartache's on Me" by The Dixie Chicks
End Credits: "Chances are" by Bob Seger & Martina McBride

I currently only have country music on my Ipod...i haven't had a chance to put on any of my other CD's yet. Take my word for it i have a wider appreciation for music then this shows lol

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Thursday, January 04, 2007
So last night after dinner, since 2 of the 4 kids had done a decent job eating, I decided to let them have a treat. For christmas their Great Aunt and Uncle got them a present and with each present was a chocolate letter for their first name. As i'm unwrapping and handing out the letters i hear my oldest daughter say "that's a FREAKIN' big M". I did a double take thinking I must have heard her wrong but my husband's face let me know i hadn't. Guess my swearing has gotten better since she didn't say F*cking, but evidently i use FREAKIN' a lot LOL

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Tuesday, January 02, 2007

My darling hubby thought it would be funny to put the girls barrettes in my son's hair tonight right before bed. My son being the cutie that he is, LOVED having them in. He got upset when we took them out and went to put them away. He went to bed with a green barrette in his hair, and while i was reading him his story, he kept checking to make sure it was still there.

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Well its now 2007, the year 2006 is a thing of the past, and i'm quite happy about that. There are things in 2006 that i want to put behind me, to not think about anymore so that i can stop second guessing myself. The new year was brought in here without out much celebrating...dh watched a few stupid movies that he wanted to see and i read a good portion of a book. I don't even think we kissed at new year's, more like 20 after lol. I didn't set any resolutions...i don't see the point. Most resolutions are broken within the first weeks anyhow. Instead I have things i would like see happen in 2007, but if they don't occur it won't be the end of the world. One of the things i'd like to see happen are the end of diapers...my son is the last one in them, and i'm hoping he'll train this summer, but we'll see how that goes and if he shows an interest. It would be an amazing thing to not have to buy/change diapers anymore...i've been doing it for over 6 yrs now...at one point i actually had all four in diapers.

Lets see what else. I can. not. wait. for school to start back up. My twin girls have been out of school for close to four weeks now, and they don't start back until next Tuesday. Oldest dd has been off school since xmas, so not nearly as long but she's going on her second week off of school and quite frankly i think thats too long. She needs that routine and so do I.

The kids had a good christmas. Santa brought just enough new things that they were excited to have without being totally overwhlemed. Next year i'm really going to insist on not going anywhere on xmas day though...after celebrating on xmas eve and opening presents xmas morning from santa...i'd just like to realax at home and not worry about packing up and going to another persons house for xmas dinner where the kids refuse to eat and just ask for more presents all night long. So yep next year we'll do the whole xmas eve thing because its dh's family tradition, but xmas day we are staying home in our jammies.

I'm getting the itch to move again. I think its because its coming up on the point where we usually move. The longest we've ever stayed in a house is 2.5 yrs, we've been in this one for 1.5 yrs so far. I know we won't be moving, and i don't really want to. I hate the whole packing/unpacking stress...but i'm ready for a change. I love my house, but its defintely not my dream house. I would love to live in an area where i can't see into my neighbor's house from my living room...where i can't reach out and touch my neighbor's house. Maybe in a few years we'll look into finding a place like that....

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