I'm. Not. Ready!!

Yesterday after OD came home from school, she emptied out her backpack for me and I started going thru the papers she had brought home that day. First there was a flyer for some indoor soccer club, then a scholastic order form. The last piece of paper was printed on green paper and had the school logo on it, so i saved looking at it for last. I placed the papers on the counter, emptied out her lunch bag and then went back to the stack of papers. I immediately recycled the indoor soccer form, glanced thru the scholastic order form, but realizing it was the same one the girls have brought home from school the previous week recycled that as well. This brought me back to the green paper with the school logo on it. Across the top of the paper were the words that literally made me throw up a little in my mouth....Kindergarten Pre-Registeration Survey. You see here in the great white north, Kindergarten lasts for two years, 5 days a week for 2.5 hours a day. Children go to Junior Kindergarten when they are four years old. This form was announcing that kids born in the year 2003 are eligible to attend Kindergarten next fall. My baby girls can go to school, they can climb aboard that big school bus and go off to real school next year. The form just wants their names and birthday and our address so that they can set up an appointment in April for us to come in and register the girls. The form also lists all the documents we'll need to have with us when we come in for our appointment, proof of their citizenship, address, and immunizations. Thinking about sending them to school next year feels me with so much angst. I know that Twin A will do wonderfully in school, she loves preschool and surprises me with all the new songs and poems she learns. Twin B is where all my nervousness comes from. She loves going to preschool, it took her a bit to get comfortable but once she did she's been great. My fear is that because of her Apraxia she'll flounder in school next year. I'm afriad that the kids will pick on her or not want to play with her because they won't understand her (the kindergarten class is a mixed Junior/Senior class, so there will be kids as young as 3, who will turn 4 that year in JK, and as old as 6, those in SK, in the class). I'm also afraid that the teacher won't be able to understand her or give her the help she needs. I'm afraid because she'll need to be able to say her ABC's to prove she knows them and count to 10 and such and she just physically can't, that she'll develop a hate of school instead of loving it. Seriously thinking about sending them to school in the fall literally makes me sick to my stomach. And lets not even discuss putting my 30 lb kiddos on a bus to go to school. I have to have the form returned by the 31st of January....i'll just try to ignore it till then.